Happy New year

Happy New year

Happy new magical year

Soon we will enter 2021 and this time is always a time to reflect and set directions.

I meditate every morning and every evening, practicing just to observe the energy being in my body and my connection to greater source.

At this time of year I ask myself my soul, am I on the right path? Do I have to dive deeper into the very core of me? Do I have to make changes in the way I use my time on earth differently in order to feel I live my soul?

Last night I sat before my meditation with a big piece of paper wanting to focus on my spiritual work and being. When I opened up my big notebook (A3 kind of a size), I saw that I had already a month ago made a mind map for my souls expression, small steps for me to step into much more in 2021. I smiled to myself, understanding that I had already begun to step into 2021 with my new intensions.

Sometimes I get lost. I get lost in the picture I have decided that I would like to manifest and forget to really feel how I would like it. This year in 2020, I have dared to ask myself question of how I really would like to live it, you know this life I have been given.

I have looked at my writings over the years, I have looked at my obsessions, my journey, especially since the Kundalini started and I see that Love, and the journey of soul love and the love for me is the very core of it all. I have not found my expression of it in a way that I feel full. But for now, I have accepted that the way I see a relationship which are fulfilling for me is very different to what I thought is was, and what I thought it was going to be.

So my 2021 is going to be much more full of this expression of this journey which has been for so many years and are still so very much here.

Lotte Søs

Xx

In to ME see

In to ME see

In to ME see = Intimacy

I saw this explanation of intimacy in a magazine and it captured me. It made me still and investigating at the same time. Like it squeezed out the core of the meaning of that particular word.

For me the word intimacy associates with being physically close with a man, staying in a presence and magic of what to see, feel, smell, hear and taste. It’s about the senses, my senses are to be awakend to see, feel, hear, smell and taste what is going on in me, but it is as much as to be aware of him and his senses, his reactions, his wants, his heart and his soul. It is that deep sense of listen to all of him, the physical sensation, the emotions, all the nonverbal, the non spoken, the subtle senses and being in the wonder of the universe. It is to experience it all together in a place where both feel safe and a willingness to surrender into each other at that very moment..

When I read the “In to me see”, I felt, I saw a simplicity of a raw core of the word that had never occurred to me before. I felt like all the associations left and I stood there naked with the word and wanted to go closer to get more intimate with the word.

In to ME see. Yes that is ALL. See me, hear me, feel me, touch me, taste me, all of it the physical and the nonphysical, that is what it feels when someone dares to be intimate with you and you with them. Daring to see exactly YOU. This is so profound and expanding when you meet someone that does that.

But here it comes, what I also saw in that line “In to ME see” was seeing into me.

And that perspective changed it all when I saw that. It was as the word itself came with a love declaration towards myself. It was as I saw the softness of being intimate with me, was to see me. See me for what I am now and feel what I really feel, and not an anticipation of what I think I still am of something that I was.

I have been in such a huge sorrow and being so busy for a long time, and I needed to see me again, who am I now, what do I see, what do I hear, what do I feel. How do I smell, where do I feel tender, where do I feel strong and it opened up to the choice I had to make. I had to make some more stillness in my life. I had to cut lines of communication to hear me. I needed to go silent, until I would be able to start listening to the new me.

I needed to touch myself again physically and with my heart. Listen to that touch my soul are here to imprint in the world.

I practice it now again after I lost my father, but it took me more than 1 ½ year to come to the point where I was ready to feel, hear and see myself again, because I lost a huge part of me when he left us.

I needed time to reconnect to my soul, my souls voice, and not just connect, but listen and start taking action. I needed as I could see now, to be intimate with me. In to ME see. I needed to see me again and it has done a huge difference. I am listing to all the creations I am here to do.

So from the intimate me, go into you and see YOU. What you really are, listen and dare to go with it. I promise you, your soul will be so happy, even if it scares you, it will always nourish you so much.

Lotte Søs

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Living with Kundalini

Living with Kundalini

I have been talking about this for a long time, I have tiptoed launching the blog… but then again not writing on it. And then suddenly today after days of some days with full on Kundalini symptoms… the once that scares me, I then suddenly recorded the first video on my life with kundalini.

I have been so scared that you should see me, see that this is what my life is all about, this is what is guiding my life. I have tried to hide, but now… kundalini has its own will and it wants out, out in the world.

It’s a big day today, I took a big leap with the video.

But I feel, that finally I am fully ready to go with all the words I have to tell you.

Enjoy the ride.
We are only here once.

L
xx

Hey… we are test recording

Hey… we are test recording

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Hey everybody

We are now doing some test on the recording of “Let’s talk tantra”. It is so amazing to being in this process of just wanting to get the book out in the world. My heart is jumping around with joy.

In 2018 it will be available. Stay tuned

 

Enjoy the ride
We are only here once

xx

L. Lee

A manifested dream

A manifested dream

A manifested dream

A manifested dream

This saturday “Let’s Talk Tantra” will be published. And a very long dream/vision is being manifested. The vision that I saw more than 12 years ago, of small books being created in a new language has now found it’s way into the manifested world.

Last Wednesday I had been out all day at my business club and my head was full of inspiring talks. When I returned home I saw that the boxes of freshly printed books had arrived. My heart flipped out, beating faster than I felt my physical heart could handle.

The feeling of holding the physical book, was so thrilling and exciting for my heart, and feelings of completion, heartbreak, strength, courage and belief… so much belief… merged with everything. And then the tears came… running for hours of relief.

It’s not just a book; it is a book from my deep core. I love the books I have published over the years, I love nurturing them, I love them because they are like small personalities waiting for someone to pick them up and be shared. I simply love what I do.

Some dreams are so powerful and come from so deep within that you feel your whole life will have lost it’s meaning if you stopped believing in them. This is how this one felt…

So… when something keeps on whispering in your ears:

  • Don’t stop believing it. Not even if it looks like it’s never going to
  • If you like to talk, find the best people in your life and share your dreams with them. They will keep reminding that you have something to give to the world.
  • Find the inner blockages that keep you from getting there. And get them unblocked in whatever way is best for you.
  • Ask for help.
  • Meditate
  • Never stop believing and find your ways to keep the dream from fading. Go wild in imagination.
  • Be persistent.

The previous 12 years felt like nothing that moment when I held the book, but I must say… what a journey…
Good luck catching and fulfilling your own dreams.

Enjoy the journey!
We are only here once.

L. Lee
Xx

Surrender into writing

Surrender into writing

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Surrender into writing

Surrender into sitting down in a constant flow of words coming out of my hands and surrender into the lifestyle of writing was not something that I thought I had to deal with.

As I have written earlier on the blog “My Italian Angel” was written twice – two completely different books though. When writing it I decided to do it a bit here and there and it worked out well… and after it was finished I had planned that it should be edited, then published and then later maybe a new book would take form.

It is said that everytime you make a plan God is laughing and so it happened again.

Last year I had a roadtrip on my own in Italy, driving from Milan, Pitigliano, Turin and then Como lake and when leaving Milan again on the airplane the inspiration to a new novel came through. I remember thinking on the plane… one more book in the same series and I thought that I had to publish the other one first… but I just knew that I had to write, and so I did.

When I started the second novel the attitude towards writing changed, the surrender to living a life where writing became a first choice, the way of living to be able to write was changing. I observed that my whole mindset about living changed and what I hadn’t seen coming was that I loved it.
I love writing and I love the calmness of the life that follows. The quietness and being with my computer has had such a fantastic impact on my life. Do you know that feeling?… When you experience that you are much happier living a different life than you thought you should live?

It’s the beauty of surrender into ourselves that makes life shine when we do… But I can say I have spend a lot of time resisting it and why? I can’t give you any good reasons, not even one – why we don’t surrender into what is the best for us? Do you ever wonder about that too?

Enjoy the ride
We’re only here once

L. Lee

Xx